Hello there

So it's definitely been awhile since my last post. Most of it I have been working with the exception of last week. Had 5 days off which threw me for a bit of a loop.
At any rate I have done some shopping and wanted to show off my more prominent gets. One week I spent quite a bit on neccessites which took a toll on my funds. However I do love my new sheets. I There are a few things I forgot to take pictures of like, my new lip products ( not all of them are lipsticks) and my new lenese which have yet to be worn. I had meant to try them out over the weekend but rushing and unpreparedness is probably my weekness right now. ORZ. Still have had little social time despite how much time I've had off. Kinda sucks, but this has been my reality as of late. Still have yet to do some school shopping too. Or even think of what kind of outfit I wan to wear for my first day of class. My mind have been riddled with ideas. I want to attempt to make my own mukluks from a pair of old boots. Now on to the
gets.

 

Ginger Honey and this awesome candle holder. Crystal Skull. Who's got it now Indaian Jones ( I am dork and sadly that is the only Indiana Jones  movie I have seen ._______. )

 A witch can never have too many bottles. I am gonna decorate them and then fill them with special things. I think some protection oils are in order. Seriously though it's an addiction.

New hair and face products. Hair products from left to right. Chi Keratin Mist, some argon oil and John Frieda frizz-ease. To continue on. I went to Ulta...and I need to go back for the nyx stuffs and various other items. But that's the concealer. then I have some H2O eye serum and Yes to Carrots face moisturizer. SPF 15. Good for the face. I have yet to try out my concealer but I love everything else. Then those are 3 pair of my reading glasses. I have quite a few squarish frames. Looking to get more maybe some round ones, and def more colors.

 I've not owned flats in some time. While I could stand to get a more neutral pair. I absolutely love them. They're cute. I had to get a size up from what I typically wear since my feet are a little wide >____> but they're comfy and that's all that matters right now.

  

My birthday was some time ago, and my mama got a book on dressmaking. It's very helpful and I've become less err stubborn in the process which can me one thing. 

 I get patterns when they go on sale at my Job. The first and seconds ones are current project. To be more specific on the first butterick pattern I'm doing the white top, and on the pattern in the middle I' doing the red dress ( first one on the bottom) The second butterick pattern will be what I'm doing after the first two are done. The second blue dress to be exact. And I'm making 3 of them, In different colors....for me XD. I don't really have the confidence to make clothes for anyone else outside of skirts and elastic waist pants....maybe some knit tops, fitted anyway.

 There's about 20 patterns in that drawer.....I don't think I have a problem >>....I can't wait to get my hands on some of the halloween patterns though. They dresses are so lovely. I'm thinking I may get some accessories patterns as well. I saw some cute belt bags ( I don't know if this is the right term, but some steam punk stuff is too fucking expensive so making my own would be cool and fun.

Of course the grand piece. My own Hookah. Looks like a second person could indulge with me, but for right now, it'll be me and a good day off. I got mint tobacco to go with it, though I've plenty of other herbs I could use. It's not really big either. Maybe 10 inches in height, though it's just a guesstimate right now. Looking forward to this weekend. 

I've also gotten a second cactus. I'll have pictures of them next time, but I've got like a neon pink one and a blood red one. Talk about opposite ends of the spectrum. 

That's all for the time being. Hoping one day soon to have more social time and hopefully pictures will be included ( I never have anything planned so I'm almost never ready ; A; )  I'll also be sure to post my projects when they're finished ^____^

I have a couple posts coming up soon.

Sorry for the non-activeness. But work drains my energy and I have lazy. Will be posting soon though so please stay-tuned.

Breaking and Making some rules.

So I have most definitely decided to do Hime gyaru. I may have said this some posts back, but I'm gonna go a bit more into depth. I really do enjoy the aesthetic and lovely dresses. Though it isn't really an everyday type of thing. However the idea of all that shiny fabric for dresses ain't gonna fly. And can be highly unflattering. And There is also trying to distinguish what would be considered Hime Gyaru enough. I do intend to break a few rules. It's not about being a rebel or anything like that. It's about being able to wear clothes that are flattering. Now I know Petticoats are not really a thing for Hime Gyaru. Just a personal preference. I like the poof. And I think it can easily pass as one fashion or another. I prefer a non OTT style as well. I think simplicity is can still be elegant, and the dramatic pieces should be left to one or two things in particular. i.e dramatic hair and maybe some heavier makeup. But 3 billion bows is much...well that's an exaggeration of course, but sometimes that many bows is really fucking tacky and you end up looking like a fool. This of course is just my personal opinion I also have to think about the lengths of my skirts and dresses. Too short and with my err current weight....I would definitely be asking for it in terms of  being blasted out on the street and in the online community.

Hair is also another concern of mine....or more appropriately a place where I'll probably break some rules. I have an undercut which can be a little challenging. Summer is pretty much a no with me and wigs right now. It'll be way too damn hot to even do anything beyond maybe a photoshoot. Not to mention getting it to stay in position would be kinda challenging.  Now I can work around this with a weave more or less. Plenty of ways to protect my hair and still have something to play with. But I won't have the traditional hime gyaru hairstyles. While it is obviously a more recognizable, It isn't for everyone, and 5 hair pieces is not my idea of fun. And I want to be able to do hair that isn't gonna take entirely too long to do on a regular basis. Yes not very Gyaru of me, but I'm for practicality and ease in as many places as possible. If I can make my hair less of a task I can put more effort into other places. Like my make up. Which isn't terrible, but right now it'll probably be something that takes me a little longer to do. And considering at this stage in my life where I have a standard wear at my job which I can't really change. Even if I make it look cute...my work apron isn't cute lol. And I don't know if I could get away with altering it or something.

Now to make this post less texty here are some clothing inspirations :3

I know some of these are actually hime lolita, they're still inspiring to me. That's all for now. Birthday's in a few days and I hope to definitely have something to share.

5 exp needed for next level up.

Oh yes I soon will be hitting 26 and to be honest I'm still feeling more awake and aware than ever. I have many posts I want to do, but I'm still working out the work vs social life thing lol. I've only had one social outing since I started working. But what can you do. Now today was a bit annoying because I had to get my brother a screen for his chromebook. 60 bucks. As if my check wasn't short enough. Not anyone's fault it's just how my days had worked out. Then I went out and spent more than intended. My rent will just have to be given all next pay check. -sighs-

At any rate. I will be applying for my first credit card. Which will help me in a lot of ways. Like you don't even understand. And I'm about to embark on an epic amount of sewing. I think I'll wait till the end of the month before I do another haul Post. I may even start doing some vids as well. We'll see. I don't know what I could offer vid wise honestly I guess maybe I can do an intro plus some Q&A so if you have any questions you want me to answer in a vid leave them in the comments.

I still need to work on my terrible habits. I haven't been binging...but my eating habits have been really terrible and since I keep no cash on hand I have yet to go to the gym.. ugh. I just need to stop putting it off and just go. I'll just have to work around my schedule as best I can. And set aside money just to take the bus. I think 30 for two weeks should be good. u____u

Also gonna sell a few pairs of my shoes. That haven't been worn. Two pairs I can't really fit which breaks my heart but they'll be better going off to good homes instead of collecting dust in my closet. Also gonna sell a wig that I don't wear. It'll be for the best and it's a little extra money in my pocket.

You are so wrong.

G_S this week has shown so much fuckery. The mod should be ashamed and the anonymous cowards should go bathe in acid. If you are a non-black or brown person who is into Gyaru and you tan. Not a word better come out of your mouth about Black girls/women can't be gyaru or can't do it right. Fuck you. We are this color by birth and you have to bake and color yourselves to have the beautiful tones we come in. And a majority of the time you come out fucking orange and haven't the slightest clue on how to wear the proper makeup to go with it. For those of you throwing fucking shade with "Oh light skin women are prettier." Fuck y'all too. I have seen some ugly light skin women and I have seen ugly dark skin women. Just like I've seen ugly in just about every other race. What I can't stand most is the hypocrites who insist on breathing every minute of the day. Don't ever say you're not racist because you have black friends. Either you giving them the damn koolaid or you wouldn't ever say this shit where they can hear or read it. Because your ass would get beat. What some of the caucasian non-racist folk who say we turn everything into a racist thing. WE don't, it's usually non-black people who initiate the shit and then get mad when we call them, give them the fucking facts that didn't come from wikipedia. Most especially from white americans. "OMG Isis no, why would you say that, what about the white people?" I don't hate white people. I hate racists and ignorant wastes of space who contribute nothing but hate. Gyaru is not sacred, everyone can do it. I'm not gonna sugar coat. It isn't a look everyone can pull off the looks, but it's no real excuse to attempt excluding or chase out a single group of girls because you don't like them. And before anyone says "Oh but white people get told they can't wear binidi or Native American headdresses etc etc." News flash, these are not fashion items, these items have history, are part of a culture and often sacred to their particular culture. But you because it looks cool and we don't care about any of the other stuff that's attached to it, gonna wear it anyway and simultaneously shame those who these pieces belong to. Racists in G_S go choke on a rhinestone .

So I've been shopping > u>

I really enjoy having money to spend. I try o be as frugal as possible. It can be quite difficult. Between things I need to buy and of course the wants. It's a struggle. But I'm getting better. My account wasn't a 0 so that's great. And it's not been at 0 since I opened the account. Direct deposit has finally kicked in, but I'm probably gonna have to call them about that 100 that was supposed to go in there for opening an account and setting up direct deposit. Anyway onward with the good stuff. eBay is still addictive. Though I'm worlds better I still have a ways to go. Also target is hard to pass up. I actually bought some clothes....well one piece of clothing. I have a love hate relationship with buying clothes in a store since I'm horrendously frugal when it comes to clothes. But I'm opening my mind to new things. That I've openly stated my dislike for.

Starting with a clutch. Now I really dislike having such a small bag, but I'm aware that some situations will call for it. This little gothic bag is sweet though. It's not too small it can hold the essentials and maybe even a makeup bag. But it's not as large as my smallest purse. I had been eyeing the bag for awhile and was happy that I could finally get my hands on one.

Details of the handles. Cannot wait to take this bag out. 

Yes that is the watch and earrings from my last post. but we're
gonna focus on the glasses in the back. 

Next are my little gothic sunnies. Now I actually bought these a few weeks ago. These would be great if the frames were silver. But gold and silver can be worn together. Nu goth is probably what comes to mind or very old school goth, maybe late 80's early 90's And they're mine. Only 5 bucks.










And here we have a peplum skirt...Now I was originally going to make one. I desperately dislike them. Like... you have no idea. All I see is a double skirt happening. But I decided to give it a try. It would be well suited for Onee gyaru. whether classic or something with a little twist. I did try it on when I got home. And it looks...really good on me. Not that I was surprised. It's just my dislike of the peplum itself. Maybe one day I'll grow to love them.

Just a snippet of the pattern and the little border towards
the Bottom. It's longer than picture and shirred
at the top. 

                                                                         With summer lurking around the corner. I expect to work most of it, however for the days I can go out. I need some cute wear for the summer. So from my job I bought this cute instant wear fabric in orange. I'm a nerd so all I see are airbender colors lol. But This will be more than a dress. though. With the shirring I can wear it as a dress, a skirt. But few other ways. . I am going to put buttons on the front and back, so I can convert it to pants. Depending on how I wear it, it can be a romper. Wide leg pants, Harem/Afghani pants. I've a few more things to make it such. Psyched about this.

As always some jewelry. Got these earrings on clearance. They're so nice. Gold since that is the summer color and it will go nicely with the orange multi-function piece when it's all done. The detail reminds me a lot Journey and something slightly religious.







Can I say I really fucking love E.L.F products. I got a couple new things to try. And will be doing reviews on  them asap. Definitely think the mascara and shadow shield will def be helpful. Also picked up some more fit me foundation, which is just a shade lighter. This is entirely for doing Gothic makeup. It will def be used a lot it in winter.











I've also managed to get some cowboy boots. I adore them. but not the color. So I intend to paint them, maybe make them a little darker. Maybe mahogany. We'll see. Even Black would nice. They were only 26 at Marshalls. I almost got some more pallets by E.L.F. from there as well. But with some makeup on the way plus my recent purchases...They can wait. Next week will be more for definite needs. And Marshalls did not disappoint and I'll be going back next week.




Now to keep this more fun. I 've got some funnels which are much needed to finish my kombucha which at this point is alcohol and will be great for my days off. I've also discovered how to make other fermented drinks which I look forward to making. Thank goodness I love ginger lol.


One of my other good gets is my gym membership, I haven't gone yet aside from picking up my tag. Need to figure out a schedule  on going there for the time being. When school hits, it'll just be a matter of careful planning.

 Until the next time Gals. Birthday is coming up soon and I can't wait.

A big post about love and stuff.

At the beginning of the year I decided to not really pursue the man that I really really really liked and still really adore. But I needed a break from the craziness and not seeing what results I expected...and not only what I expected but even a friend and her boyfriend had expected. We all thought it would go better than what is actually happening. Although I don't think he's aware. That I've stopped but at the moment he has been going through some stuff and all I can do is be supportive.

But I also decided to take time away from something I've not even truly experienced. Part of it is because I realized I didn't love myself....like almost at all. It's barely a spark of agape, but it's been better this year. I'm following through with a lot o what I need to get done for myself. Slowly but surely. I'm registered for school full time. I have a part-time job and I'm getting better at spending my money. While  there are still things I need and things I need to nip you in the butt, it's better. I was at a point where I felt like maybe I could love myself more if I knew someone else could love me. Which is the worst way to go about things. Don't get me wrong. The man I'm speaking of.... he really meets a lot of what I would want in a mate. Sure he says and does some things that pisses me off, but no one's perfect and I can't get hung on 2 fucking percent. They're not major things either. But he is someone I get along with so well and is into a lot of what I am and shares similar quirks.

But I know some of his insecurities as well and his fears, and I can't change them. It's something that he has to do...and if you're wondering. I do think we fit together very nicely.

This year though I have to focus on other things. I don't know if I will date and really don't know if I could handle it. The idea is enough to make me anxious. I would love to, but I don't have the confidence or enough skill in that area. I didn't date in high school and chasing boys....I need a man, not a boy. I'm 26. Not rushing to get married, but definitely don't know if I have the patience to deal with...just dating different people. Because there is a difference between dating and going steady/being in a relationship type dating.

It's a process and I don't think I can say I envy girls who can just pull any guy they want. Or who've been in different relationships. I just am the type of person that right now I want to meet that one person who I can just be with.  I sound like I'm rambling, but it's what's going on with me and the realm of love.

I am focusing on self-love before I focus on love from another person.

Social life beginnings.

So I have been enjoying my job immensely even with the occasionally persnickety/weird/crazy customer. But my co-workers are rather enjoyable to be around. I've been there a month already. ( Can't believe it's been that long already.) So my second month there would fall on my birthday.

Of course with a job also comes a paycheck. Which I've been slightly better at holding on to my money. Now if I were to work full-time I'd probably have a lot more than what I currently get, but they only were offering part-time so...it's all gravy for now. But Friday was the first time I've hung out with a friend in probably....a year or two...which is really a long time to not see anyone. Most of my social interactions are done online, so this was a nice change of pace. I didn't get all fancy because I went right after work and had no time. I didn't even have a camera on me and my phone died...next time I'll remember to keep my charger on me when I'm gonna be going out. So Friday I went to the Willingboro Mart with my friend Rehannah and her friend Anthony ( yay for new friends.) He's pretty cool, and has that randomness that is tolerable, singing random game tunes, imitating voices from shows. My kind of people lol. Got a few things from Mart as well. Let's just say that I spent more than I had intended to, because those little things add up. But what can I say. I need some of them. Never got around to going to Target. I needed to get some shorts...so hopefully next payday that will happen. -crosses fingers- I also got some sweets from the Amish since they're in the mart almost all the time...They make the best fucking red velvet cake ever. It doesn't have that weird after taste that most red velvet cakes have. Also picked up a Michonne figurine for my mom for mother's day.

After leaving the mart, we headed to Tokyo Blue. It's a nice little Japanese restaurant and for the first time in forever I could actually pay for my own food that wasn't like McDonalds. They had pink lemonade which was quite awesome. I really enjoy lemonade. Rehannah and Anthony both had green tea. The meals were quite delish. Again I was the odd man out with appetizers. The only one with soup lol. But I love Miso soup. And that bow was so perfect even if I mostly ate the broth. I kinda can't wrap my head around eating just tofu if it isn't mixed in some way. And I didn't eat the seaweed. I should have though. Everyone had something different when it came to the main meal, but we all shared. Rehannah had Chicken Katsu. Which I need to learn how to make...because it was delicious. Light, but still crispy. Not greasy at all. Anthony had Shrimp Yakisoba. Now...I wasn't a big fan of the shrimp...which is odd because I really do like shrimp. Something about the way it was flavored. Me I had beef teriyaki. Now I asked for Medium well...what I got was medium rare. I could have sent it back, but I didn't want to make big fuss and I ain't sick or dead from eating medium rare. I have to say it was quite different. But it was tender and flavorful. It wasn't a sweet teriyaki like I make at home, but still enjoyable.

For dessert we all had tempura banana and ice cream. I can't really get behind green tea ice cream as I've been put off by the idea on a couple of occasions, but it was pretty good with Vanilla. But it was almost too much banana.

We went back to Rehannah's house afterward. Watched a couple movies. Iron Sky was...interesting. It wasn't the worse in the world but it was a wtf kind of movie. The ending was best though.
Then we watched The Bodyguard which was an action/comedy movie. I cannot for the life of me remember where it hails from country wise. It was pretty good though.

Now there was also anime...I don't know what day we are doing this, but we watched squid girl...and her mannerisms are sea/squid related. ( Stuff like inkvasion and oh my squid.) We have now decided we're gonna have a night where we take shots for every one of those she does. Which means we're gonna be fucked up. I am almost gonna propose I go over on a Thursday night just so I can drink without worry.
Managed to live through 5 minutes of Hetalia....I don't even know what the fuck is happening in that anime. It's just....no I can't. How it became popular is beyond me.

Guin Saga....was interesting. It's about some twin children ( Prince and  Princess) and they're on a quest to bring sovereignty to their country once more. So far they've met up with a man who has a leopard's head. The prince is a pansy and a half. I understand they're children and all, but, he does a lot of whining.


Saturday I went to walmart with my parents. Picked up some things. And started breaking in my new sneakers. Love them so much. Also went to The supermarket. Picked up some whole grain bread, synergy and some seven day candles. After all this I'm not broke lol. Even though I had some things on ebay I had to pay for and even signed up for a gym. The money I can spend...eh that I don't have much of. My savings are all good though. Debating on whether or not I want to get a credit card. Maybe I'll get one on my birthday.

New phone. 

new earrings 

new watch 

I bought two boxes of these. They're an indulgence. Thin as hell and so yummy 

Everything but the mouth wash is all natural. Will be doing reviews on the mouth wash
and the conditioner. 

New incense. Charcoal discs and one of the black candles. 

I look forward to what I'm sure will be my newest addiction. 

New Glam Pie Sneakers and some Ivory wedges my mother bought me . 

New work out shorts. An infinity scarf and a skull bandanna. 

Okay so these are all handmade. These are my leggings. I really had fun making them. They're almost complete. The purple and black pair need to be hemmed and need elastic. The blue ones have to have a gusset added ( they were the first pair I made so they had the most mistakes.)

I also have some new sunglasses which will be featured in another post.