Evolution

Alright as I stated in a previous post I would show you the evolution of my hair and makeup. I decided doing it all in one fell swoop would be easier than trying to do two separate ones. Man going through these old photos.... 

So the first batch were the last of me having dreadlocks and after I cut them off I needed a wig which my friend helped me do :3. 

I only had my nostril pierced so I was probably about 19 here. I was  really into Kat Von D's  face tattoos. I did them with liquid liner . I stopped when other people started doing it. 

This was the first quick weave I ever had. I don't have that bunny barrette anymore.  And apparently not smiling was a thing for me. ( Not that I was happy to begin with.) I was still just barely grasping makeup. 

I was also very into scene hair/style so the back is teased and I have one of those little crowns. 

I was probably about 19 or 20 here. I didn't wear my wig anymore since I got my first flat iron. I was still drawing stars at this point. Still no smile. 

You can see my fuzzy leg warmers in the background. That fringe from the first  picture is very much present.

From 20 to 21. By now you should know I was a bit of a cam whore. I was over weight ( though from these pictures you can't really tell.) But I was fairly uncomfortable with taking full body shots. 

I think I stopped with the face " tattoos" after I turned 21 but I was about 20 here.
My eyeliner was pretty good here. And the Bat necklace was from my mama. And I wore it everyday. 

I think was probably the first wig I bought. Pastel colors are easier  for me to pull off. And I believe those are my first lashes. I still have that stuffed Lamb who had been affectionately named Ruka. 

This is a wig I made. I was working at the time. And this was a day off.  Those are my reading glasses, which I managed to lose....Not sure how. 

This wasn't my wig, at an ex-friend's house. I was a big fan of pink eye shadow .

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This was my not my 21 first birthday but I was of age and if I'm not mistaken  going to my first drag show...Yes that is my friend in Drag behind me.

This was 22 through perhaps 23

I had gone to otakon, gotten my first tattoo, Managed to mess up my favorite wig, Made another wig and wore some rather curious things. 

 Not my bathroom, I didn't even realize it was in the picture before I posted it....least it's clean.

 This would have been a lot better if it wasn't blurry, but that was a poorly made dress. I am not even gonna front about this.

 Sort've smiling here.

This was pretty okay, makeup style wise...I was terrible at cutting bangs, but I still like it. This was even before circle lenses.

 The last two are the only full body shots I have from back then...and I don't even know what to tell you. I am really busty... and had the poorest sewing skills among other things.. I lost a lot of clothes that I really wish I had, they got lost in the move. 

Gonna show you the best pictures from the time before the move.

I really love these two photos. ( And I miss the hoodie and this jacket) But I had a lot better grasp on makeup by now. I hardly wore a full lash band if I wore lashes at all. I had stayed with just wearing gloss mostly. But I really enjoy these a lot. 

 Now this was months before the move. I was into Udoli ( which I still love just haven't done). I still have this hat. Makeup wasn't perfect but worlds better than when I started. ( I wish I had some of my makeup looks from high school. ) 

 Udoli makeup after the move. I still straightened my hair then. It was just about shoulder length. I cut my own bangs too. 

 This was either before or when I was working.  The one below I was working for sure. Only way I could afford some of my oddities. 

I was 22 in all these photos. Putting on makeup and taking pictures was the only pastime I had since I didn't have my own computer. 

This was my earliest attempt at gryaru. 

I really enjoy doing different looks. Again pastel wigs always suited me better. I'm sure I could wear other darker colors but I hate wasting money on wigs if they won't suit me. 

This was actually the second time I had cut my hair. I had wanted to reduce my use of heat when doing my hair but I was also very new to doing natural hairstyles. 

More Udoli makeup. I think this was my favorite. 

 Ushering in 2011 I actually had an Amy Winehouse wig and was chit chatting with a friend from NC. 

I look bored but I wasn't lol. Not Udoli makeup 

2011 was when I really did my makeup well. I want to apologize to anyone of latin descent. I was ignorant to the phrase Cultural Appropriation when I did this Sugar Skull makeup. Even though I really like it. But I had watched endless vids on doing makeup and was determined to be able to do the basics. As well as the extreme. 

 This is from 2012 if I'm not mistaken. I was on unemployment so I bought myself some clothes. This was probably the only full body shot I had really taken. Though for my particular body shape these weren't the best choices. But I don't look bad either. And apparently I had on one of my better bras. 

I was getting more into Gyaru makeup by now. Trying my best to get the makeup down. I had no photoshop and quite frankly I don't think I need it. Even for the blemishes I sometimes get. I am very much a fan of circle lenses and have quite a few pair over the last few years. Brown, Green, Pink, Purple and Gray. I've had a black pair but they made me look high or something. But so far I've worn these colors well, especially the grey ones. I will be getting more in the future. 

Now I've only got one from this year so far. But it's posted on my blog already haha. 

Hoping to have more looks beyond just hair and makeup. 

Life Updates

I need to make more of these. <3 

So if you guys follow me on twitter or facebook, you'll know I finally got a job. It was about time that's for sure. So now I will be able to save up for things, like clothes. But I have 20% discount at my job...which means funding my sewing projects haha. It's only part time, but that's all good. It will make it easier for the time being. I want to have time to work out and actually do other things. This sounds worse than I intend. But the last job I had, not only were the hours all over the damn place. I almost never had time for anything including social activities. Social activities already have to be planned like days in advanced. Not even sure if clubbing would be in the future. -shrugs-



Anyway I have a few things I would like to get that are needed more or less.

The LG Optimus Elite. I definitely need a new phone. My old one was starting to flip out a bit. I have no luck with contract phones and if I wanted an iPhone I can actually get one from virgin mobile. But this one is nice and with the times lol. I'll just have to get a case to deco to my liking. For 35 bucks a month, which gets me 300 minutes, unlimited data and texting. I have no qualms paying a little extra for a nice phone. I'm sure some of you are wondering why I would choose such low minutes. Truth be told I don't have that kind of talking bug. I never had that habit in high school and have no reason to be talking on a phone all day. Especially when I can just text. The minutes could just be saved for emergencies. -shrugs- 

I also need to by a new tablet. This is a wacom bamboo tablet. It's a little more expensive than my first one, but this is one of the better quality ones under 100 dollar. If I were going to really splurge it would be the one that's 1200 bucks but I can see what I'm drawing on the tablet itself a not have to look at the screen. Not that I have too much trouble doing that. I'll probably get them in the order posted because I technically need the phone first. 

For anything else, it's going into savings. I will be doing line art commissions as soon as I get the new tablet so I can have extra money. Most of my money will be put into savings. And I'll just have a jar to save up for shopping spree of any kind. I haven't really looked into any type of clothing that I would like for the season though I intend on looking into some more expensive bras that will last a little longer. Saving money is probably one of the habits I've never been able to do well. It's something I do to make myself feel better instead of eating. If I could maybe channel that into exercise I might be able to do it. But also...there's always so many tempting things on the internet. Especially since I'm a crafter. But I promise to make an effort to not spend every penny I have on everything I want in that moment. If I have off next weekend I'm hoping to go back to the flea market to maybe get a hookah. And some of my favorite hair products. Yes to Carrot or Yes to cucumber. One of the best hair care products in my opinion. And I plan to splurge on the Iman bb cream at some point. It's gonna be summer time soon and full on foundation is a little too heavy and will melt I'm sure. 

Also apparently sometime soon we're supposed to be moving....not far from where we are now. It's like across  the  roadway. I'm sorta whatever about it. Heard that the rooms are bigger...which is nice. Always could use a bigger room. I would just hope that the damn ceilings/walls aren't as awkward as they are in my room.. I forget what kind of ceiling it is exactly but it puts me in the mind of a barn, the ceiling itself is flat but like half the wall is slanted and it sorta pisses me off. But a new house with more space would be nice. I could probably get some actual dressers. 

Truthfully hoping to have more to post about. Even if I only get out like once or twice a week. Better than nothing. South/Central Jersey and Philly Gals where you at? Loved to hang out. 

Upcoming Posts: 

Hair and makeup evolution. 

Weight Loss progress and a look at my Regimen 

Mentally underwhelmed.

Not leaving the house on a somewhat consistent basis, is very depressing. I've actually still been to scared to leave my house since the incident two weeks ago. Even if there's a chance of encountering those assholes again It's only the second time in my life I've been threatened. The fact that it was racially charged makes it worse. So I apologize for the lack of social posts lol. Me and a best friend had a bit of a heated discussion. Well I consider it heated because it's the first time I feel she's actually been angry at me..like seriously angry. But it made me realize that I don't get a lot of intellectual conversation no matter what the topic it is. True to my geminian nature, I crave knowledge, I love to learn. Even though she's right, we're in a time where certain things there is very little energy to spare on certain topics, I don't have anyone to really converse with on regular basis about anything I find particularly interesting. I feel like someone would either get bored with me,  piss me off, or I'll be in a position where I may not have an answer and possibly look stupid. 

A conversation like I had tonight makes me feel as if I should keep things to myself though. Something I'm used to, but really wish I didn't have to do, more often than not it's personal things, but when it's not personal it just feels lonely. Not that the feeling is completely alien to me either. 

I think right now I'll do just that. Keep things and opinions to myself at least when conversing with friends. 

There's Magick Afoot.

So yesterday was Easter. We didn't really do anything. My mom and brother's sat down for Walking Dead and Game of Thrones. Me... I was up here working hehe. I won't tell you all that I did. But I gave myself a tarot reading, which I have to say was pretty fucking accurate.

 So first let me show you the spaces so far. This of course is the main altar, that I do work at. I found some fabric in my stash, perfect for spring. The stick will  be made into a wand soon. I am an air sign and since I'm not bound to any specific rules I think it's one of the few altar tools I need.

 

 This is a faerie Altar. I need a few more gems. But it has some purple lights that I bought for Halloween a couple years ago. That is an egg candle, which was a semi success ^^;;

 This is a close up of a the faerie bed. It's just a nice place for them to rest should they stop by or in need a rest after working with them. It was an old case for contacts, I just painted the top and sides and dusted with blue and purple glitter.

And here's the spot for Lord Ganesha. It's right beside the faerie altar, mostly due to limited space. Just some golden yellow cloth, with a pink trim. I think it's very fitting considering how simple it is.

Now on to the good parts right? Sorta.  This is just a preview to how the altar looks lit up. I don't have just one deity with whom I work with, there are several. But I do keep chalices. The one on the left is filled with healing spring water, from South Carolina. Can I tell you how delicious that water is. It is so pure and clean. The chalice on the right has sake in it. I didn't know what the spirits and deities would like. And my Sake hadn't been open. And I think it was a good that there was a choice. Some deities do have specifics when it comes to "Adult" beverages and I will honor that when I can.

This was actually the best photo I could get of the faerie and Ganesha altars lit up. They wouldn't let me have clearer close up even though I really tried. It's all good though.

 The altar lit in color. Candle on the far left there is a seven day candle. We generally light them for protection. But they do have some specific meanings when you delve into the different colors. Mine is white with the The Virgin Mary on front.

Close up of the tarot reading that I will allow. Just a three card spread nothing fancy. Though with all the candles going I don't think it would have been great to do something too big ^^;;;  All in all, it was a great night. I had trouble getting to sleep though. I managed 3 hours. Hopefully going to bed early will help with that.